Missing You

25 Aug

This is harder than I’d thought it would be. Not to say it’s bad. I admit, I’m having a blast here. I’ve met some incredible people, made an instant best friend, decorated my room to perfection…but I miss my old life.

Already, I miss my room. My real room. With my bed, my fan, my closet. I miss my kitchen, my refrigerator, my snacks. My living room, dogs, television. My mom. My friends. But more than anything, I miss my Austin.

Before you start rolling your eyes about my attempt to hold on to a “back home in California” relationship, I’ll clue you in. I could be all sappy and tell you about how happy he makes me, how cute he is, how I feel so safe in his arms…but I’ll refrain. Let’s get this straight: I’m not writing an entry about my long-distance relationship issues. Instead, I want to share how hard it is to leave this thing, a boyfriend in my case, that is so important to me.

He’s been my best friend, my world, for years now. And since I’ve been at Pacific, we haven’t been able to talk once. See, while he’s been traveling Europe for fall semester of his junior year, without internet in most places, I’ve been swamped with the chaos of move-in and Voyages. It’s a good thing, I know, that we’re taking this time that we would otherwise still be apart to learn, experience and grow, but all I want is to tell him every detail from my day. It’s been a week since we’ve talked and all my mind does is dwell on how intensely I miss my amazing summer of nothing but him.

Maybe for you, this thing is a best friend, sibling, pet, place. No matter what it is, no matter how long it has been so important to you, being away is hard. Whether you text and Skype everyday or have no communication for weeks at a time, it sucks. But I guess all we can do is keep our spirits high and write down every single memory to share when our roads next cross.

In the meantime, the countdown continues: 111 days.


One Response to “Missing You”

  1. Liz Rainaud August 25, 2011 at 3:28 pm #

    You are both on amazing adventures; journal what’s happening, take photos, etc. and just think of all you will have to tell Aus when he gets back.

    I miss him, too and I’m glad that you guys got to come up for a short visit this summer. We’ll have to do that more often.

    Austins Auntie

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